Emo Eats

I spent most of the day at the computer desk, dreading the workout. The day started out fine, I ate well...was pumped for activity then slowly but surely as time crept by I found myself trying to talk more and more out of exercising and more and more into eating. So I did. I ate. Nothing major that would sabotage any workout effort, but I ate...out of sheer boredom. Who does that??? That's right...a LOT of people do that. It has a coined term 'Emotional eating'...that is me, that is I. I eat when I am happy, I eat when I am sad, I eat when I am excited...celebratory eats, I do it ALL! 

The good thing about this? I am able to recognize it. I make a conscious effort to note why I am walking into the kitchen, every time. This is going to be a great tool. Every time I cross the kitchen entry, I ask myself why I am in there. If it is not valid, I turn around and walk out or grab a glass of water. It isn't easy and of course there are slip ups, but for the most part...I catch myself. I should put a postcard on the door that says, "Why are you walking in here?" I think I will. It may help save a few hundred calories here and there.

As I sit here, later than usual writing this...I am proud to say my arms are incredibly sore. Almost too sore to extend them to type this blog. And for that, I am proud! I talked myself out of the negative and into a workout. A good one. You never regret a workout, that is for certain. And this pain feels good. 

So, my day is complete. It wasn't a perfect day, but it was a decent day. My short term goal is to put my weight out there and do a weekly update. I find that my weight has been fluctuating and it pisses me off and makes me want to toss the scale off the balcony and go binge eat. But alas, I won't. If I put my weight out there and you all are counting on coming here and seeing a decline I think that will give me that extra push to work that much harder on my workouts or to not eat that appealing dish, thus creating a consistent deficit. (Don't hold me to this, it is not set in stone lol...this will take some cojones!) 

Tomorrow: Finally some 5-a-days, time management and my PUSH goals! 

Upcoming: My weight loss arsenal!

Slave name: Foodie!

Ok, so I skipped a day...hubby came home, what can I say? ;) 

I haven't been doing my 5-a-days, so I have nothing to report on that yet. I need to figure out an effective way to list everything that I have done/am doing, but I have yet to perfect the system. Any ideas would be welcomed! 

I said I would introduce you to PUSH. PUSH is a book by Chalene Johnson that I bought on my Nook a few weeks ago after reading the reviews ($11.39 for the Nook version). I think it is a GREAT place to begin your lifestyle transformation. It is a step-by-step approach to listing and conquering attainable goals, it includes links to printable worksheets and in my opinion is an incredibly motivating book! (I should note that I have not yet completed the book, as it is a 30 day effort). 

I should mention that in addition to laziness, which we covered in a previous blog, for awhile there I considered myself a "foodie". In doing so, I realized that I enslaved myself to that name, that description and therefore became one. I love food, I love trying new recipes and cooking but that is not WHO I am. If I put that label on myself I am committing myself to having this obsession with food when in reality, that has helped get me this place I am now. 

A great portion of my day revolves around food and the kitchen. I am a stay at home mother of 5, it comes with the territory. So I HAVE to have a close relationship with food, I need to get to a place where it is HEALTHY relationship. I have always looked at low fat recipes and cookbooks with the stink eye...they just don't seem appealing! I love my pastas, Mexican food, cheeses, 2% milk, etc etc. I loathe the chewiness of brown rice, the taste of whole wheat pasta and the thought of meat being bland. As time went on, the more research I did I realized that if I make this conversion to eating naked I can experiment with the different natural herbs and how they pair up with certain dishes. It becomes a matter of learning, of trial and error. I do that with fattening foods, why shouldn't I be able to do it with wholesome, healthy foods??? 

With that said, I created a new pinterest board, "Skinny Recipes". My previous "Recipe" board consists of mainly fattening casseroles and side by side comparison is astounding (calorie wise and visually). A friend introduced me to skinnytaste.com and I have pinned most of my "skinny recipes" from there. I will indeed venture out and find other sources but for now, this is my start. 

This transition will be a slow, grueling, steady one. Because of that, it will become one that sticks! It is almost like taking a class and never paying attention, always jotting down notes without absorbing the knowledge, cramming the night before the final, getting a decent grade and never retaining a thing from the entire course...just accepting the passing grade. Rather than take that journey again, I will absorb the knowledge, I will walk away from this knowing and understanding how to live and eat healthier. I definitely didn't pack on 100 extra pounds over night, I do not expect them to melt off my body in rapid fashion. 

I hope you continue to follow me on this journey and eventually I will get the balls to put my "magic number" out there (weight) and post the before pics...or progression pics, rather. Feel free to leave feedback! It is much anticipated, much welcomed and will help me tweak this to be more readable and relatable! 

Til tomorrow! :)

Blaaaahhhhh....

It has sooooooo been one of those days. Kids were out of school and fighting ALL day, I get a call first thing in the morning from one of the kids' teachers regarding their less than stellar grades, found out there was a delay in processing my tax return, husband is coming home tonight after being gone a few weeks so the day is dragging ass. Uggghhh!!! 

Anyhow, trying to stay positive but it's pretty rough let me tell you. When the kids are home it throws my schedule all off in terms of exercise. I got up and had a few peaceful moments to myself with my cup of coffee (An absolute MUST), made myself one of my typical breakfasts: 2 eggs with salsa and dry whole wheat toast. Thhhheeeennnn the kids wanted sausage and potatoes LOL So naturally, I took a bite here and there and probably ended up consuming an entire portion size. :( I haven't worked out yet, it is 5:42 pm, my husband will be home in a few hours and I feel drained! 

That's it, rather than sit here and dwell on all the negatives I am going to go over to trusty ol' pinterest and gather some motivation, make dinner, clean the dishes and while the kids are eating do my cardio. 

I know yesterday I said today I would introduce you to PUSH, but with the day I've had...it's not likely lol Perhaps if I get the kids off to bed on time and the hubby isn't home yet and everything is done, I'll bring my ass back here and lay it out. If not I'll catch you up tomorrow!   

<3

5-a-Days

Before I get into the introduction of the 5-a-days, I wanted to start listing what I have done workout-wise daily. So, we'll begin with that:

This morning after shipping my kids off to school, having my cup of coffee in front of the computer screen and making sure Roman (my 5 month old) was snugly asleep I broke out my gear; two 5 lb dumbbells,  one 10 lb dumbbell, resistance bands, jump rope, stability ball and yoga mat, I threw on my P90 dvd (phase 3-4) and realized I didn't feel like following it so I left it on the screen and began doing some of the moves, but my own time, my number of reps. I also kept open my pinterest tab and got a few workouts from there and this is what came of it:

• 50 rope jumps
• 25 squats
• 20 push-ups
• 20 chest presses on the yoga ball
• 20 swimmer's presses
• 20 military presses
• 20 open bicep curls
• 20 overhead presses
• 15 lat pulls
• 10 butt blasters (5 on each leg)
• 15 backflys
• 15 lawnmowers (each arm)
• 5 cobras (5 second hold, down for 2 seconds...times 5)

I repeated the free weight movements x2. (NOT the cobra, rope jumps, squats or push ups)

A few or a lot of these may seems foreign to you and if that is the case, do what I do and "Google it"! :)

I finished this up in about 35 minutes time. I intend on doing some form of cardio tonight before bed to get that extra calorie burn in while I sleep! 

So, onto the 5-a-days! As a mother of 5, I like for things to be simplified as much as possible. So I had the thought that in order to better my life daily, I would take 5 things that need improvement and work on those things daily. The five things I could come up with were:

1. Exercises (in addition to my "regular"workout, maybe 5 target areas?)
2. Household chores
3. Positive affirmations
4. Positive words/favors/kindness towards others
5. Servings of fresh fruits/vegetables (a hard one for me!)

My intention is to do 5 of each, daily. Tomorrow will be my first day and I will be sure to let you know all about it! 

Tomorrow's subject: PUSH!

Day 1, sort of...

Yesterday was intended as an intro of sorts, the fact is since January 17th I have been "done" and have been keeping up with my lifestyle change...exercising and eating healthier. There have been a few bumps in the road (including ordering a pizza and eating 4 slices and justifying it because it was "mostly vegetables" smh). Sadly, I cannot go and restock my fridge with healthy goodness until Saturday so I am currently making do with what I have! 

So, far I have lost 6 lbs. I would say that a few days I worked at maximum intensity and a few days I did not. After the declaration yesterday, from this day forward maximum effort will be put into EVERY movement however small it may be (climbing the stairs in my house, walking my son to the bus stop, workout dvds, etc). 

Today is my birthday, YAY! I officially have 2 years left in my 20s and I intend on making the most out of them! A friend brought me a cheesecake and I had a SMALL slice, it is after all a celebration ;), but it was of serving size or less...no overdoing it like I would have a few weeks ago!  Besides that I have eaten pretty well today, no excess, no high fat foods. (that statement brings to mind one of those nifty pinterest pins, "Do not reward yourself with food, you're not a dog", hmm...food for thought. Literally)

With that said, I have not done my daily workout yet and it is 2:30 pm, so now I have to fight the voices in my head that are attempting to talk me out of it, but alas...thy will be done! Today is my strength training day, which I enjoy more than cardio days so it shouldn't be hard to get over this slump. I would have completed it this morning but I was expecting company for the first time in a loooooong time! My mental well being is important, too! :)

If anyone is wondering the specifics as to what I am using/doing, I have an active weight watchers account, an active livestrong account and my workout dvds that are my "go-to" are: Power 90 (the original, not hardcore enough for the "x" yet lol) Chris Freytag dvds, YOURSHAPE evolved kinect game and various workouts that I find online (all of which could be found on my pinterest board!). I will start listing the workouts that I complete daily! For my birthday, I asked my husband for an elliptical and this Saturday we'll see if he listened! If not,I plan on making it to the gym as much as possible because oddly I can stay at the gym for hours doing my thing but in the comforts of home I tend to lose my #beastmode. 

My next blog, I will introduce you to 5-a-days! My new little accomplice in this journey!

Bare, naked I.

Here goes....tomorrow I will be 28 years young. I spent the past 13 years having children, screwing up my body in one way or another. Food, lack of movement, pregnancies, breastfeeding, stress....the list goes on. BTW, yes you read that right, I had my first child at the tender age of 15 and my last child 5 months ago...and 3 in between! 

Anyhow, in a distant library in my mind I have all the knowledge and know-how to lead a healthy lifestyle and have had my trials of yo-yo dieting and exercising. For one reason or another it hasn't stuck. It has caught up to me, in the form of 100 extra lbs! (you read that right, too).

With the help of pinterest, (may cause a snicker or two, but it's true), the new year, having a tubal ligation following my last birth and the misery that exists in my daily life due to a negative self image I have decided: It is time! For all the cliche reasons and a few personal ones....it is time. I need to be an active role model for my children, I want to LIVE, I don't want to be "the fat one", I want to inspire others and I want to be healthy! I want to walk into a clothing store and be able to try ANYTHING on knowing it will fit and look good! 

Maybe you asked yourself how the hell pinterest helped me come to this conclusion and I'll tell you: By providing a visualization of what and who I want to be and having all those little nifty motivational images and sayings. Rather than wake up and check FB I now get up and stalk my "health" pinterest boards and let me tell you there is nothing more motivating than seeing a sick ass body that you're envious of and that you know would make you cringe if your husband/boyfriend/lover saw that same image! 

My head is constantly spinning with different ideas and I swear I have some form of adult ADD...but realistically, and this is hard to say, hard to PUBLISH for you to see and definitely hard to swallow BUT these three words will help set me free, for it is the raw truth. Here goes:

I AM LAZY. 

Mentally, physically, in almost every aspect. There, I said it. And it looks as bad as it sounds. What's worse it FEELS worse than it sounds. I am lazy, I am lazy, I am lazy. I cannot count the number of times I have had a genius plan, a business idea, a crafty thought that could be of enormous joy to my children, etc. All the good intentions that fly out the window because of those three words! 


Now, three more words to eliminate those three disgusting words for life:

I AM DONE. 

Done being lazy, being the fat girl, the fat mom who sits on the bench and watches her kids play instead of playing with them, the fat wife, done with it all. Now. 


Here are my quick, naked, raw plans/goals that I will tweak as time goes on:

• Naked eating----cutting out processed bullshit (if it goes bad it's good for you, if it doesn't it's not....courtesy of one of those nifty little pinterest images ;))
• DAILY exercise. (no allotted time, maximum number...I refuse to be a slave to a countdown workout or time, it doesn't work for me. I will put 100% intensity and maximum effort into every movement I make regardless of reps/time etc)

• Daily positive affirmations. (You have been there, looking at the reflection in the mirror and pointing out every possible flaw and hating the person staring back at you...maybe you haven't, but I have. Too many times. DONE! I will seek the positive in that reflection, if I don't love me...who will?) 
• Keep up with this blog! (I need to be accountable to someone or something! And on days that I have a slip up or feel shitty I will be forthcoming and honest! No lies, nothing hidden...completely open and raw hence the blog name: barenakedi)

This is my beginning. I have 2 years left in my 20s, 5 kids to be a role model for for at least another 17 1/2 years, a husband who deserves me at my best and most importantly a healthy body and mind so that I can love myself in order to build, maintain and grow healthier relationships with those around me.